Depression. That word holds so much emotion. A fear, on so many levels. What does it mean if I am depressed? Do I doubt God ,am I going to be judged by my neighbor, can I change it myself, how did I get this way?And the answers are loaded with dynamite. Either way it is answered I either acuse myself and sink farther or I blame someone else and isolate myself further from the truth.But I do blame someone else. I blame all of those female rights activists. The ones who stole the identity of women and tried to turn us into men. While at the same time they stole the identity of men and tried to make them unnessesary.

I also know how I got here. I know that I have a hard time renewing my mind to the truth of God ’s word. That as I get older I realize that the role of wife and mother is so important ,yet I don’t know what that role looks like. I doubt that God will bring role models to me who are also willing to invest the time and effort in discipling me. I doubt myself that I will be able to change in time to make a differance in the lives of my daughters.

But change is happening. Albeit it is a slow process,and painful at times. Yet one of the things I have learned is that I am not alone. WE women need each other. More than those radical feminists would like to think. We need interaction with other moms and wives. We need to know we are normal and that we can make it. We need to hear those differant ideas of how to do things. Even if we never put it into practice we need the spring board that those ideas create. If we pull back from other women for fear of those judgmental comments and attitudes(you know they are there) then we set ourselves up for failure and lonliness. Dooming ourselves to listen to those lies the devil fills our heads with and falling into depression. Or being pushed into it.

The thing about me is, if I get pushed , I push back. So although I may be down for awhile , God never lets me stay there. He always shakes things up just enough that the blinders fall off and I see the design of the devil for what it is and I get up and fight.

Rom 12:1 I APPEAL to you therefore, brethren(and sisteren), and beg of you in view of [all] the mercies of God, to make a decisive dedication of your bodies [presenting all your members and faculties] as a living sacrifice, holy (devoted, consecrated) and well pleasing to God, which is your reasonable (rational, intelligent) service and spiritual worship. 2 Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].

It was His will to create me to serve Him. That is what He created you for too. One can put a thousand to flight …If you need help putting those thought to flight let me know…..2 can put 10,000.

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